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(85.1KB, 1024x768) I can't find any ugly people on my Instagram feed, only beautiful ones. I tried falling in love with a girl who is nice in everything else but her face, and I didn't feel strongly about her still. Yet I can't seem to fall in love with pretty girls when I recognize my feelings for them as lust rather than love.
I don't think I can tolerate a life of absolute stoic excellence, nor unbeholden hedonism, nor finding a balance. Each has its own drawbacks. The first is endlessly taxing and drudging, the second is ruinous, the third is mediocre.
Out of love, paralyzed by life. Wanting to give it my all, wanting to give it all up, now just merely getting by.
