i feel empty and feel that all things i see are gone, i feel nothing every time i go to bed even though there are dreams, i know i can do whatever but i cant because the money chase and its effect on me as if i do nothing for a week the days will feel like boring sundays, i feel hollow and tantalized as the money chase robbed me of my art but i am sedated with ketamine and just do nothing but watch as painting by painting is stolen, i went and still there in that grey ash forest i get lost in.
