Did any of you get into ceremonial magic or magick?
This year I read tons of e-books and essays on the subject and only learned about meditation techniques that have certain effects on the body and mind and maybe behaviour (and one two thousand of boring dogmas of how (maybe) the universe work or what you need you believe to make thing works)
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Although I have a very scientific background to just "Belief", I also ended up learning about clinical hypnosis and achieved some fun effects like the ideomotor reflex or proggresive relaxation.
And no, I didn't manage to invoke or evoke anything, although ending up with the delusion of a tulpa and singing like an elf from Lord of the Rings with a hippie new ager vibe were fun experiences.
Other than that, I just ended up reading about ideologies, dogmas, superstitions, ancient beliefs of metapsychs, and magical thinking.
I've practically come to the (maybe) conclusion that it's all a psychodrama and mind games with special techniques, although I share the ideas of the original chaos magic. Sometimes i was just
>“For Eris, this shit of reciting barbaric languages and words in Hebrew and greek that i dont fucking know is boring as hell, i dont see anything in my mind eye.” "I tired of this bullshit i gonna make DIY LBRP call-in wathever i want"
>"Why i need to do a pathwork into a kabbalah tree to gain some energy sphere power?" "FUCK THIS shit i gonna watch porn"
>"I rlly need to do all of that boring dance and visualizations and sing to banish this damn place?" "*open the windows, play metal, hardbass, happycore, trance music, do a Expecto patronum or kamehameha simulation and hit a wall with laugh and cry to banish the place*"
